[Sadness turned to understanding as he realized how similar things had been for him. His father hadn't been that bad but then Alec had almost run away after coming out and then he'd been trying to save the world. There hadn't been time for Robert to try to keep him away from Magnus.]
My father didn't want to accept I was gay. He kept asking me what he did wrong to make me gay. He still gets that way sometimes. There's nothing wrong with it, Sebastian, or with what you did. I don't know if I would've been able to tell Magnus the truth of Robert had done something like that.
[But he didn't doubt that Magnus would have let him go if Robert had separated them.]
He sounds like he was an amazing person. He cared about you if he did all that so he could stay with you. That's not something to feel guilty of or ashamed of. Love is not something to regret no matter how it ends. I don't think he'd regret being with you if he did so much so that you two could be together.
[Letting out a sigh, Alec ran a hand through his hair, not noticing that it was now standing on end.]
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My father didn't want to accept I was gay. He kept asking me what he did wrong to make me gay. He still gets that way sometimes. There's nothing wrong with it, Sebastian, or with what you did. I don't know if I would've been able to tell Magnus the truth of Robert had done something like that.
[But he didn't doubt that Magnus would have let him go if Robert had separated them.]
He sounds like he was an amazing person. He cared about you if he did all that so he could stay with you. That's not something to feel guilty of or ashamed of. Love is not something to regret no matter how it ends. I don't think he'd regret being with you if he did so much so that you two could be together.
[Letting out a sigh, Alec ran a hand through his hair, not noticing that it was now standing on end.]
He did but sometimes I wonder...