"I haven't told you all the bad parts, but I'm glad that you don't judge me by them. Nephilim have done terrible things in the past and I made some stupid mistakes that I still regret."
[But Sebastian isn't one of them. He might doubt but he knows Sebastian is right. Robert hadn't loved anyone. Not the way that he should have or he never would have hurt Maryse or his children. Or Michael.
The thought of what Robert sickens him, especially since he had once been in similar place as Michael. No Shadowhunter should ever do such a thing to his parabatai.]
"The good parts of you are pretty good too. All those things I said about you being a hero. They're true. You might need to learn how to fight but there's more to saving people than knowing how to use a weapon."
[Sebastian is saving him from the doubt. Keeping him from drowning in the past and the wrongs that could easily weigh him down and break him. The fact that Sebastian looks both adorable and sexy while trying not to smile helps with that.]
"I want both of us to follow our hearts. It's not... Love's not wrong. I know that now. I don't care what the rules say. According to the rules, I can't be gay and I can't date anyone who isn't Nephilim. It's stupid and people have been twisting the rules around to cater to what they want."
[For a few seconds, he stares at Sebastian, realizing what he'd implied. But it feels right. Maybe not yet. It might not be love but he cares deeply. Sebastian has become one of the people that mean the most to him and he's not going to pretend that's not true.]
"Once, someone compared me to one of my ancestors. That side of my family loves deeply and we can be selfish in that love. At least to others it seems selfish. We do foolish, reckless things for love. He loved two people so deeply..."
[There really were no words for it but Alec had understood it when Magnus had told him about Will. He could easily see how that sort of love could build between people. Will hadn't loved one less to than the other and he wouldn't have given up one to have the other.]
"The rules tell us we can only love one person at a time. He didn't let the rules decide who he loved and I'm not going to let the rules decide that for me. I'm not letting you go, Sebastian, and I'm not going to do what society says is the right thing when I know it's wrong."
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[But Sebastian isn't one of them. He might doubt but he knows Sebastian is right. Robert hadn't loved anyone. Not the way that he should have or he never would have hurt Maryse or his children. Or Michael.
The thought of what Robert sickens him, especially since he had once been in similar place as Michael. No Shadowhunter should ever do such a thing to his parabatai.]
"The good parts of you are pretty good too. All those things I said about you being a hero. They're true. You might need to learn how to fight but there's more to saving people than knowing how to use a weapon."
[Sebastian is saving him from the doubt. Keeping him from drowning in the past and the wrongs that could easily weigh him down and break him. The fact that Sebastian looks both adorable and sexy while trying not to smile helps with that.]
"I want both of us to follow our hearts. It's not... Love's not wrong. I know that now. I don't care what the rules say. According to the rules, I can't be gay and I can't date anyone who isn't Nephilim. It's stupid and people have been twisting the rules around to cater to what they want."
[For a few seconds, he stares at Sebastian, realizing what he'd implied. But it feels right. Maybe not yet. It might not be love but he cares deeply. Sebastian has become one of the people that mean the most to him and he's not going to pretend that's not true.]
"Once, someone compared me to one of my ancestors. That side of my family loves deeply and we can be selfish in that love. At least to others it seems selfish. We do foolish, reckless things for love. He loved two people so deeply..."
[There really were no words for it but Alec had understood it when Magnus had told him about Will. He could easily see how that sort of love could build between people. Will hadn't loved one less to than the other and he wouldn't have given up one to have the other.]
"The rules tell us we can only love one person at a time. He didn't let the rules decide who he loved and I'm not going to let the rules decide that for me. I'm not letting you go, Sebastian, and I'm not going to do what society says is the right thing when I know it's wrong."